Jillian
A Novel
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Halle Butler
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Halle Butler
About this listen
The "sublimely awkward and hilarious" (Chicago Tribune), National Book Award "5 Under 35" - garnering first novel from the acclaimed author of The New Me - now in a new edition
Twenty-four-year-old Megan may have her whole life ahead of her, but it already feels like a dead end, thanks to her dreadful job as a gastroenterologist's receptionist and her heart-clogging resentment of the success and happiness of everyone around her. But no one stokes Megan's bitterness quite like her coworker, Jillian, a grotesquely optimistic, 35-year-old single mother whose chirpy positivity obscures her mounting struggles.
Megan and Jillian's lives become increasingly precarious as their faulty coping mechanisms - denial, self-help books, alcohol, religion, prescription painkillers, obsessive criticism, alienated boyfriends, and, in Jillian's case, the misguided purchase of a dog - send them spiraling toward their downfalls. Wickedly authentic and brutally funny, Jillian is a subversive portrait of two women trapped in cycles of self-delusion and self-destruction, each more like the other than they would care to admit.
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Critic reviews
"In its ability to induce paralyzing existential depression, the fiction of Halle Butler is perhaps matched only by those Black Friday news stories in which grandmothers get trampled in front of stacks of fifty-five-inch TVs." (Jia Tolentino, The New Yorker)
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After three marriages and a lot of living, resilient Billie Slate knows exactly what trouble love can bring. Now she’s reinvented herself as the Heartbreak Bunny, an on-call performance artist who can heal anyone who’s been burned by that four-letter word, LOVE, by hopping about and whisking away sad mementos from their past relationships. Call it magic. Call it peculiar. But her bunny costume is as perfect as her breakup mantra: SNAP OUT OF IT.
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REFRESHINGLY WONDERFUL
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On April 27, 1997, four contestants make it to the final cell of the Quigley House, a full-contact haunted escape room in Lincoln, Nebraska, made famous for its monstrosities, booby-traps, and ghoulishly costumed actors. If the group can endure these horrors without shouting the safe word, “reprieve,” they’ll win a substantial cash prize - a startling feat accomplished only by one other group in the house’s long history. But before they can complete the challenge, a man breaks into the cell and kills one of the contestants.
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creepy escape room story
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I can't say they didn't warn me. Right now, I realize: I probably should have listened. Because if there's anyone who has no business playing a sport that requires a helmet, pads, and a liability waiver, it's this girl. The same girl who once knocked herself out during a game of backyard baseball. I stepped up to the plate, pulled the bat back a little too far to swing, and clocked myself in the back of the skull. Boom. Lights Out Lucy. That's how I got my roller derby name. So yeah. Maybe I should have known better.
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Wonderfully smart laugh out loud story
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When Lena Johnson’s beloved grandmother dies, and the full extent of the family debt is revealed, the Black millennial drops out of college to support her family and takes a job in the mysterious and remote town of Lakewood, Michigan. On paper, her new job is too good to be true. High paying. No out of pocket medical expenses. A free place to live. All Lena has to do is participate in a secret program - and lie to her friends and family about the research being done in Lakewood.
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Fact or Fiction
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It’s been 17 years since the tragic summer the McAvoy sisters fell apart. Lindy, the wild one, left home, carved out a new life in the city, and never looked back. Delia, the sister who stayed, became a mother herself, raising her daughters and running the family shop in their small Ohio hometown on the shores of Lake Erie. But now, with their mother’s ailing health and a rebellious teenager to rein in, Delia has no choice but to welcome Lindy home.
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Declan has commitment issues. He’s been an office temp for literally years now, and his friends delight in telling people that he left his last boyfriend at the altar. And that’s all true. But he’s starting to think that maybe it’s time to start working on his issues. When Declan meets Sidney - a popular nonbinary YouTuber with an advice show - an opportunity presents itself: as part of The Love Study, Declan will go on a series of dates arranged by Sidney and report back on how the date went in the next episode. The dates are…sort of blah.
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This book was like a hug
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You Say It First
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One conversation can change everything. Meg has her entire life set up perfectly: She and her best friend, Emily, plan to head to Cornell together in the fall, and she works at a voter registration call center in her Philadelphia suburb. But everything changes when one of those calls connects her to a stranger from small-town Ohio.
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Good for a placeholder
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- J.Hamp
- 09-20-20
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I really enjoyed the story but the narrator wasn’t my cup of tea....I quit after part 1...I couldn’t go on
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- Andrew Shogan
- 11-07-23
It is laughably boring
If you are ok with mundane than this book is for you. You’ll often find yourself asking “why am I still listening to this?” And you’ll be thoroughly disappointed at the awful ending. But you’ll always remember how bland it was!
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- Amazon Customer
- 03-17-21
OK, not as great as The New Me
(Tepid 3.5)
I liked The New Me more. This one was fine but felt a little all over the place, edging on boring at times. I never knew what Megan wanted, and I barely kept track of characters like Randy, Erica, etc. Jillian was a well-drawn character, however. She was the highlight that made me keep reading (listening, rather).
I always like first person perspective more, and this is in third person, so maybe some of my opinion comes just from that. It felt at times like it was a very distant third person, as though I were watching chess pieces move across a board. I had a hard time finding the living, breathing people at the heart of the story. I do like how short Halle Butler’s books are. I can listen to one full story in one half-shift at work, which is cool. And I adore her deadpan narration on the audiobooks. It’s always perfect for the tone of the work in my opinion, and I find it refreshing when an author reads their own writing. The final scene and image was satisfying enough, though it did leave me wondering “what was the point?”
Despite my qualms with this one, I will certainly buy Butler’s next book when it’s available.
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- Aaron S. Berman
- 07-25-22
Nobody Writes (or Performs) Like Halle Butler
Let me get this out of the way right now – I'm neither a Millennial nor female, but there's something about Butler's writing that speaks to a universal loneliness in 21st century America. Like "The New Me," "Jillian" is a character study rather than a traditional narrative – actually two character studies. The author brilliantly captures the absurdities of the workplace once again. This book is at times laugh out loud funny and deeply penetrating, often at the same time. Her understanding of people's motivations remains sharp and, as the predecessor to "The New Me," this novel contains glimmers of approaches and ideas she put to greater use in the subsequent book. One of the most striking is the occasional "cosmic" observation that she slips in out of nowhere; one that puts all the micro-annoyances of life into perspective. Finally, I'm grateful that Butler performs her audio books – her emphasis and intonations bring the dialogue to life.
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- Kate H.
- 08-29-24
The Narration Made It!
This was narrated by the author, and the tone of the narration really set the tone for the whole book. I don’t think I would have experienced or interpreted the book in the same way if I had just read the words on a page. There are certain parts that, if I had read them on paper, would have seemed stupid. But when I listened to them read aloud, with the flat, listless tone of voice, I picked up on the satire, and those parts were humorous. I LOVED it!
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- Bobby
- 02-06-24
I don’t get it
I’m at a complete loss as to the point of this book. The writing was good, but the story was about 2 annoying women that work together that each have their own crappy lives and are self destructive. The end. Oh, and something about Karma at the end, but it seemed tacked on.
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- Jennifer Pierce
- 02-13-22
struggle from start to finish
struggled to get through even the first chapter but pushed on. none of the characters are at all likeable.
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- Amal
- 09-09-24
Please let someone else read
I know you love your book but the reading really irritating. I couldn’t finish it.
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